2015Recovered from surgery. Prayed. Hoped. New Job. Great Job. Leadership. Purpose. Roseville. Healthy. Work Hard. Fun weekends. Family. Dinners. Ihsan achieves. Removing negativity. New Car. Opportunity. 

Thankful.

To New Beginnings

Big thangs are happening.

I'll randomly say "I'm excited" throughout the day. Randomly. That Excited.

First off I get to move back to Roseville, Ca, where I used to live with my family-- but due to my Dad passing we decided to move back home to help my Mom.  Now, after 4 years of sacrifices, sleepless nights, and "darkness" (because I work nights), I can now live a somewhat normal life.


I got a 9-5, Mon-Fri job for a corporate healthcare provider. Its a Fortune 500 company and it has good intentions, which I appreciate. Now I have weekends off! week-ENDS. This has never happened to me throughout my nursing career thus far. 

Mondays would be my Sunday, and awfully, Fridays have been my Monday (worst rotation ever, rub it in why don't you).  All that is done and I get to spend much more time with family and have the life I've been wanting-- basically to live in sunlight.








I'm so excited.

My Skins actin' a fool.

I've been a faithful MAC NC 40/42 user since my freshmen year of college.  Despite hearing that it clogs pores and causes break outs because of all the "cloggyness"- I used it because it gave me the coverage that I needed.  I've always had acne prone skin anyway ::shrugs shoulders::.

So I've recently switched-- for shits and giggles, to NARS Sheerglow Foundation in Barcelona this past mid-winter season.  I loved it! it gave me this fantastic glow, didn't accentuate any dry spots and gave me natural coverage.

Now that the days are warmer, it starts to cake on meee face! It literally spotlights all my wrinkles, all the crevasses that I didn't know that I had lol and cherry on top people-- breaks me out with all these little pimples especially in my chin area!  Like what happened to the foundation that I thought was my HOLY GRAIL? total Fail. I want to return it but its been through 3 months of use lol.

Back in my kit you go and hibernate & wait for colder days I guess.

So, planning to re-purchase my MAC NC40 once again, my soul mate, my first love (sorry I left you in the first place boo) 

I'm just overall disappointed with this whole situation.  Here I go venturing out of my comfort zone, to expand my horizons and seek new products in hopes it will change my perception to makeup.  Well I guess it was a miss. Oh bladee. Oh bladah. Life goes on.

Just a rant. NARS Sheerglow ISN'T for everybody people lol

Peace & Blessings

 

Re-hydrating my skin at the moment, wsup.

Can You Stand the Rain...

I praise the individuals who stood in the rain.
Who stood tall through the storm-- cold, powerless,
and alone. 

Looking up in the endless night sky
thinking and wondering if this rain is a blessing
or just tears returning back to them. 

Do we seek shelter,
or do we just take it as we deserve it ?
There must be a reason behind all this.

There has to-- its too poetic not to.

As I quietly and motionlessly stand in this growing puddle,
with each drop stabbing my heart... 

I take it.

Because I know,
the water shed will take part of a spiritual growth-- that
amongst all this hurt, a part of me will grow.

After all my tears are seeds.

As Always,

Peace & Balance.
Bev

Feeling: Stuffy/ Coughy
Currently: Eating Sahale Pomegranate Pistachios & drinking Grean Tea 
Listening:  Lapalux on Pandora

So I've come down with the Flu, Phlew, Flew, Plew, Plou.  

....

It sucks _____.  So lets back it up to Pre-Flu happenings. 

I watched 50 Shades of Grey with friends, Carolyn & Sharon. 

I honestly was a bit iffy about it because I only read like the first 40 pages of the book then got bored of it. Well,  I made myself go out and watch it in hopes of gaining interest.  Umm.... it was intense, sexually intense.

Carolyn, who sat to the right of me, was literally sitting on the edge of her seat throughout the movie. Sharon who was to the left of me was giggling at every naughty scene. I square the whole crowd, including me, knew every mole and scar on Anastasia's body. I liked the movie surprisingly... it was like a grown up Twilight haha. 

I saw myself more of the Christian Grey type, meaning.... I'm like him lol. I'm Alpha female (ask anyone) I like things a certain way and l live for control.   I liked it... so much I want to take Henry to watch it one day. The actors who played Christian and Anastasia were on point, very into character  Although the movie ended abruptly, I really can't wait to watch part II, and possibly pick up reading again just to see what part II has in store for the two twisted love birds.

Now off I go to take some ibuprofen, tessalon, singular, tamiflu, and my albuterol/nebulizer treatment. Yes, I'm that messed up right now. Stay away from the Flu! Wash your hands and stray away from those who have it. 

Peace & Blessings,
Bevie

WADDAP WADDAP.

So here I am, in the FONT... coming live via macbook pro.... 2 years later. haha. I know, I know... Henry was generous enough to get me a mac pro for my Valentines/Birthday gift.  Keeper right? 

So what does this mean?

New BLOG entries?
New MOTD/OOTD?
...OR quite possibly a new YOUTUBE VIDEO?

Good gosh the possibilities are endless.  Its the age of documentation. I think its one thing to put a camera down and let life just take you, but its another to remember and re-live the moment.  So I choose both in moderation.  Life is definitely too short to just make everyday ordinary-- make it beautiful I say! And what's not better than SHARING these moments ahh? Aye? Ahat do you say? ....yes!.... YOU Comment #0. 

And this my friend, is my outlet of all things beautiful, chaotic, inspirational, colors, shapes, motions... with the accompaniment of music of course... cause music is definitely my life as you all know, especially those who followed me on the YT.  So buckle up, and soak in my vision.  Enough with these run-on sentences.  I'm Out.

Peace & Balance.
Bev.

MY EVERYDAY LOOK

MY EVERYDAY MAKEUP LOOK

So I thought I'd share with you all how I go about doing my makeup on an everyday basis.  In all honesty theres really not much to it.  You can't go wrong with GOLDS & BROWNS and its easily wearable and bulidable to your liking.  To you, it might not seem "fancy" but I notice that my everyday makeup becomes a part of how I carry myself... gotta keep it spiffy. 

Products Used:

Eyes: 

. MAC Painterly PaintPot

. MAC Woodwinked e/s

. MAC Saddle

. MAC Embark

. MAC Folie

. Mac Vanilla

. Mabelline Gel Liner

Lips:
. Soft Lips lip Balm
. MAC Spice

VLOG: Allow me to RE-introduce myself

Finally did it. A VLOG. Hall-le-lue-yer. 

Instead of Daily VLOGS, I'll grab enough content to get a VLOG out weekly.  I love my family & friends-- its only polite to share the good in life. 

I'm not trying to get on the map... I just love editing, its an artform, a release and I take it a tad bit seriously, it just sucks that YOUTUBE is a hater for music... the things I can do with a good tune & fierce makeup ::sighs:: I'm working with what I got. 

I hope you embrace & accept what I have to offer you (all 12 of you).  I can't wait to reconnect & form new friendships, but for now...

 ALLOW ME TO RE-INTRODUCE MYSELF.

My name is Bev.

Get ready with me video.

coming soon.

IG: bevsthename 

Oh, Snap

whats up my readers :)

umm, back again. I know, tsk tsk on me. I've been diagnosed with MIA once more, but I caught it early & here I am-- back in the text (that probably didn't make any sense).

So whats to come,

-whats in my purse v 2.0

-big girl hauls

-fotd(s)

-random thoughts/pictures

-ootd(s)

-possible advice (i gotta find a problem first)

I've been thinking about these general topics for awhile now. I'm most excited about OOTD & BIG GIRL HAULS just so you can get a sense of my style & how certain items appeal to me.

Happy New year to you all! So, yes- 2012 will be the year of self discovery, life documentation, & friend-making here on the net.

& for the 10 followers that I have right now (yes I'm acknowledging all 10 of you)...

who ever you are, where ever you are...

"I hope these posts put a smile on your face,

a spark in your heart, & a wrinkle in your brain"

- Bevsthename

“If you were to press your heart close up against somebody else’s heart eventually your hearts will start beating at the same time. And two little babies in an incubator, their hearts will beat at the same time. Love that. So if you have somebody in your life that is prone to anxiety, like myself, and if you happen to be a calm person, you could come up and hug me heart to heart and my heart hopefully would slow to yours. And I just love that idea. Or maybe yours would speed up to mine. But either way, we’ll be there together.”

—	Andrea Gibson (via

Currently en route to Roseville,ca on this beautiful crisp Saturday afternoon. Sipping on a chai latte from Starbucks, my drink of choice... Great for the throat especially if you've been coughing all night as I have. The mister is driving so I get to fiddle faddle with the iPad like a boss :) this post is basically an impromptu due to boredom and to prevent car sickness. I'm used to driving so sitting on the passenger side kinda makes me qweezy. So idk what else to write sooo I'll just leave this post as is, kinda like a HUGE status update.. Lol

Hope everyone is getting their shopping done and in a ladylike manner (no pushing, shoving, or death threats at the mall pls) hehhehe

Peace and balance

Bev

my thoughts.

if not now, then when?

bev

Hello, December.

It has been quite an eventful past few days. Thanksgiving came and went and now the holidays are finally here. The year is almost over and while others are scurrying trying to get their Christmas shopping done, others are savoring every moment 2011 has to offer, me on the other hand CANNOT wait for 2011 to end (IMP) just because its been the worst year of my life...

ANYWAYS. Here are some candid moments from since we last spoke Cyber friends.

Went to my good friend Sheilla's open mic gig at Java Aroma with my HS friends

Had breakfast with Ihsan & he got a free sourdough turtle thats still chillin' in my kitchen lol

Went to Thundervalley casino to press my luck

Pre-gambling toasts with good company

Our cabin for 3 days

The view from outside our cabin

Keep Tahoe blue ya'll

Sunset picture captured

Back at the cabin... Gayles photoshoot to sell fireplaces

Random makeovers with the makeup you brought, hey carolyn *wink*

Took this picture of Gayle, apparently I was more excited about how this turned out more that she did.

Carolyn & I basking in the warm sun and taking in the crisp air

Back at home, driving past the grape vineyards

My welcome home gift from the UPS guy

A pinecone for Ihsan <3

peace & blessings

beverly.

Re-CAP

Ihsan's birthday weekend was awesome. The kids had fun and so did the adults.

Watched the Pacquiao vs Marquez fight... lol that fight was so intense it made me laugh!

Anyways on with the show...

So I bought Parmesan and Caramel popcorn for the fight... 2 gallons

(originally $34.99; paid 24.99) tin can full of nummy goodness,

refillable for $24.99-- hey, why not? lol

its chillin' in my trunk just incase i break out with a CRAVE.

Heres my son with my sister. He's eating a spring roll after school while my sister and I devoured a kiwi/strawberry/banana/vanilla icecream/nutella/whip crepe- nom.nom.nom.

So I worked Noc shift (1030pm-700am) and afterwards Carolyn invited me to breakfast, she worked Noc shift too.... this is what happens when you dont sleep.

You turn into that dood from Big Trouble in Little China.

So Carolyn, her parents, and I had breakfast at this joint called CasaGrandes, as you can see from this ginormous pile of 3 pancakes... the name doesnt lie.

This mom and pop shop was everything but ordinary.

& as a nightcap, lol...

My friend Gayle, the Mister, and I headed out to Boudin SF to grab a late dinner.

The mister was craving a good bread bowl of Chili, BF wanted tomato soup, and I wanted a sandwhich/salad combo. I got the most NOMcious sandwhich ever!

Melted Brie cheese with fig jam, apples, in between parmesan crusted bread (I die). Oh is that my chili bowl in the corner? & a chili bowl. FPS (fat.people.stuff)

Okay folks, AM shift tomorrow...

hopefully when im NOT working I'll be able to do a FOTD for ya'll.

Goodnight & Happy Eats :)

x Bev

Happy Birthday Baby Boy!

I woke up to a gigantic hug and a beaming smile from my son this morning.

I almost forgot whose birthday it was, mine or his.

It felt as if he was thanking me for his life,

when I in fact should be thanking him for mine.

Journal Entry 11.10.11

" And Ihsan will run up to you, with arms wide open as yours.

You embrace him, and say "all my tiredness is gone". If I can give Ihsan anything for his birthday, it would be that moment. I love you, & miss you more than words can say..."

I love you Dad

"Everything I do, I do it for you. Anything that might be special in me, is you."

Great Expectations

love always, in all ways

Bev

Listening to: October Sky - Javier

When: 11102011

Where: Where else? my cavern of love

Feelin: sick

Quote: Closeness has nothing to do with distance.

Still feelin' feverish. But I have hopes that I will get better for tomorrow.

So I did tell you that I was going to start taking pictures throughout my day.

SO on with the show...

I start my day off with 3 J's.

Jesus. Jams. & Journal

Cake Shoppin for Ihsan's (eye-sun) birthday! I chose the top 3.

We love variety!

nom.nom.nom.nom.

pipin' hot, yet edible to eat on the spot!

simmerin' the day down with some Earl Grey Tea

"When we're together, I know I'll never fall"

See the beauty in everything,

Bev.

The Setup

Just Blogging and watching White Chicks. Gettin' over an off again and on again fever.

Kinda sucks, but its going away.... slowly.

Ihsan (my son) is turning 6 on 11/11/11. Got soo much to do tomorrow, will take pictures along the way as if you were sitting passenger side. Alright folks, gotta rest up for errands and the festivities this weekend.

PEACE & BALANCE

Bev

Listening to: Teach U a Lesson - Robin Thicke

When: 11042011

Where: My cavern

Feelin': Lucky

Quote: See the beauty in everything

Hey Now,

Whats up People! Its been awhile, lets do a little re-cap of my life shall we? Pictures seem more fun to look at than text, so I'll try to depict my life by captivating you with motionless moments of 2011 thus far, minus the sappy ones. Alright, on we go (looks through iphoto files).

My son graduated Kindergarden ::sighs::

last time i went to Vegas was when i was 12 & with my parents (boo)

Now that I'm grown, Vegas was MY playground :D

first time in Vegas without the parentals (sweet!)

I'm gonna be an auntie! My little sister (who i still think is 12)

is expecting a baby girl, named Emma. I did her makeup ::ahem::

& me and my better half, are still going strong. est. 2005"ish"

Wish-list coming soon, I started a folder on my desktop already.

Whatever I think is dope to have, I'll throw it in the folder and show it to ya'll. Maybe there will be a pt I and pt II depending on how many items catch my eye... OOOO PROJECT! & of course I'll make sure my secret santa person will have the link to my blog, (& the mister).

Happy Holidays Everyone.

Peace & Balace.

Love.

Bev.

twitter.com/bevsthename

youtube.com/bevsthename

thass wassap.

Found a J.O.B in this terrible economy. SO thankful.. yee!

SOOOO because of the new job, some things might need to be "taken less to"
such as my love for youtube. Oh, but don't worry people (all 5 of you lol) a passion truly exists if I'm thinking of how I can squeeze a vid in my schedule. SO, please be patient as always--

Speaking of youtube, I'm just thinking of how its grown into this

superficial-materialistic-metropolis

What happened in the LOVE of makeup & CREATIVITY that used to enlighten those
like artists with a brush & blank canvas... its more like

wallets & promo-codes now

I feel like the love is gone, and there's only a few of us standing who dare not to stray away from that path, especially those who have been around for years & seeing their face is like seeing an old friend.... (even though they probably don't even know you exist)

Much props to those livin' in the underground, your work is much appreciated to me, brava :)

x BEVski

"And I could still draw.

Nothing had lessened it as much
as I had abused it, abandoned it.

It was a gift, and it was still mine.

And everything else was less real.


What can it mean?
That picture of the world.

But when it's true, we recognize it
in ourselves, in others.


We recognize it, like love,
completely undeserved."

Great Expectations









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